Urgh...

Gosh it really frustrates me when I have plans but somehow my parents plans are more important than mine. I mean seriously I had plans this morning to go to the movies with a group if my friends, but this afternoon my mom says I have to babysit my stepbrother. Do they bother telling me when they plan on being home? No of course not! Turns out I didn't even need to babysit cause my stepbrother has been playing with friends all day so I'm at home for no reason. And I call my mom if I can still go to the movies at 9:30. Her response?? If your gonna be home by 10:30! Seriously?! I have been sick all week, which is why she doesn't want me out to late but stil she knows I'm feeling better today. But does she care?! No she never does! :/ so once again I'm gonna be stuck at home with my family! Ugh.. There is seriously nothing worse than being stuck with them on a Saturday night. So I guess it's another night spent alone in my room. Unless I get to babysit my friends baby. That's all folks! Sorry for venting. Noone else bothers to listen.

Sick

Geesh am I the only one who Hates being sick?! For the past four days iv have been sic and instead of getting better like normal people do.. I've gotten worse eceyday! Someone please explain to me how that works cause it's completely blowing my
mind! Me being sick reminds me of all those other people that are sick right now and it reminds me that I'm not the only one. Nor am I dieing of some disease or anything so really I should be thankful! If you really think about it when we have the flu or a cold and we feel like crap, we really should thank God that we don't have cancer or some other incurable disease... But thinking of this also leads me to think about the fact that we as people always seem to complain about the stupid stuff like having a cold. Why are we the ones complaining but the people that are dieing from a sickness are making the most of their lives?! Gives me a headache just thinking about it. We humans are so selfish. I hate how most people can't see beyond their own noses! Anyway that's my take on it..

First blog...

So this is my first blog and I'm just having one of those days. Those days where you look back on the simplicity of life, how it was when you were a kid. Today I found myself just longing to be held? Why you may ask? Just because I miss the days when I could crawl into my moms lap and curl up while she held me. It makes me miss not having to live up to her high expectations. Back then I could just be me, and no matter what she loved me regardless. Now that I'm older I feel that every mistake I make causes my mom to love me a little less and look at me different. Although I know no matter what I do she's gonna be there at the end of the day I still wish I didn't have to "measure up." well that's it for my first leave comments if you want.